Woah! Old blog!

LOL! Sorry Blogger! I guess i was paying to much attention to my LJ lol. But anyway a few updates-

-I cut my hair super short
-i'm cutting again (I know- bad Danielle Bad!)
-I MISSED THE NJ SG CONVENTION AGAIN! *sobs*
-I couldn't afford it
-therefore missed my chance to meet ZELENKA AND RONON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARG! (aka David and jason) lol

*sigh*

I wanted Davids autograph sooooooo much!

PEACE,
~Danielle

Jessica is pregnant again

^__^ tehe my cousins girlfriend, Jessica is pregnant again! ^__^ First it was Daniel Ryan jr. and now a new baby! ^^ I hope it's a girl ^__^

~Dani

P.S- i'll put up a more updated post soon ^^

My sister

She amazes me sometimes....not in the good way either. She just showed up home today after going on Vacation with her Boyfriend. She didn't even get my mom a b-day card, which she missed cause of her said vacation. She's going to take her out. That's always her f**king back plan. God i can't stand her anymore. She got FIVE purses the other day. You'd think she'd give a shit about our mom enough to get her one. NOOOOO it's to much to ask.

I can't stand this s*** anymore. And the thing that annoys me the most is how whenever she passes by the computer she always looks at the screen! It's none of her business what i'm doing! And now she's ranting to me about how everyone thinks shes a spiteful B****....it's true. We all do. I don't know what happened to my sister but....this woman living at my house isn't my sister anymore....it doesn't feel like it anyway. She's the boarder, she lives here, eats the food and doesn't lift a finger. It's driving me NUTS!

Anyway i should probably end this rant. I can't wait to go to the mall with my mom, just me and her. I love my mom. Talk to you guys soon.

~Dani

The shrine, first reaction from me taken from the ADB backup site

I have to say that this episode most diffinately has joined the ranks of my favorites. In my favorites are Mckay and Mrs. Miller, Millers Crossing and now The Shrine. This episode was amazing and david played it beautifully, not to mention Brad did an amazing job on writting it. It diffinately satisfied my McSheppy soul. There are so many wonderful parts that i loved so i'm gonna say...SPOILER WARNING now lols. First off...i was crying by the first five seconds into the episode when Mckay was doing that whole "mr. Mckay" bit and i lost it even more when Jeannie went to see rodney. By the time McKay was like "I'm sick" i lost it completely. I'm a very emotional person so episodes like this make me sob like a baby. I loved how during the episode they showed bits and pieces of his video log. Well while i'm on the fav moments subject let me list them-I absolutely loved it when Rodney sought out john in the middle of the night when he got scared. I still, however, felt that a hug should have been put there somewhere. And the whole Authur bit on the pier was funny. And that whole part in general screamed McSheppy. ^^ tehe Sorry ppl i'm a Mcsheppy fan-girl. lols.I loved it how ronon was all like "i owe it to him" and stuff. It brought me back to the part in "Tao" when rodney healed ronons wounds. Now one big part from the episode as a whole was how whenever rodney was scared, or upset or hurting he went to john. Yeah sure....he told jen he loved her....but he went to john for everything. lols So my Mcshep heart is set lols. Now on Davids performance-Davids-All i can really manage is wow. His protrayal of a person with those sorts of problems was amazingly acurate. My mom used to work with people with those problems and she would tell me stories. Davids performance was honest and realistic right down to the brutal fact that he didn't even comprehend what the team was planning. Just a brillient and award deserving performance which can't be summed up in words easily.Everyone else's-Was equally amazing. The reactions were perfect. Pretty much everyone was amazing.Now...that's pretty much all i can say at 1:00 am lols. I'm on my fifth time watching the episode and i might just do a transcript for it. I'm also gonna re-post this in my blog because at 1 in the morning my mind is kinda fried lols. ^^~DanielleS

SGA Cancelled...life sucks

Just when i thought my life couldn't get any suckier....it just did. I found out yesterday that SGA season 5 would be it's last season! This sucks....i mean it really really sucks! I absolutely love SGA.... *cough* and rodney *cough* I Can't believe it! My parents lose their jobs, my sister becomes self-centered...*cough* she always was *cough* and now no more SGA (besides the DVDs but still). I'm going to miss all of the Characters! I will deffinately miss rodney! I will miss the show aswell.

This show has helped me through so much stuff that have gone through my life. It has saved my life on more then one occation. How can someone just take something like that away.....i don't understand....

~DanielleS

Forever Gone

I've just been thinking again. One day on my b-day i'm going to send the link for my blog around to my family. Just to see if they could tell what i was thinking or if they were blind sighted by it. maybe they will be....who knows...... My sister is still together with her boyfriend. And she is getting on my fucking nerves.....she thinks she is the only one with problems. w/e....i'm so sick of her shit....anyway....i just thought i'd post. I've also decided to post a wish list-

- Meet David Hewlett
-Go to a stargate Convention (and maybe meet him there)
-meet the rest of the Stargate Atlantis Cast and Sg-1 cast as well
-Go to a second hand serenade concert
-go to an Evanscene concert
-go to a within temptation concert
- Direct music videos
-Surve an intership at Bridge studios
-Move to New York or Canada
-Meet ellen Degenerous
-Help David Hewlett with his next movie
-Become rich
-try acting
-become less shy


-----Thats all i have so far, i'll keep updating ^^

~Dani

I just thought i'd update

Hey folks! lols I just thought i'd throw in an update, a happy one so don't worry lols. I've been learning more songs for the piano. I can play the intro for how to save a life, intro for Apologize, Intro for It ends tonight, intro for Your Call and a little bit of Angels ^^ WOOTZ! OMG! Playing the piano with your right and left is hard. lols the songs that i pretty much have down with the right and left are- Sam and jacks theme and Your call. ^^

Well that's all i'll say for now. ^___^ TTy SOON!

~Dani

back from california

Hey guys, Dani here. I'm back from Cali. It was alright but i'm glad to be home. I've had a lot of time to think to myself. To just think about stuff. Not all of it is bad. Only most.

Sorry

I'm not trying to be a downer, I just don't like me very much right now.

It's times like these where i wonder how my family would think of me if they read this, but half of them don't even know what a blog is. I wonder if they would look at me the same. I mean i've written some pretty shitty stuff in here.

It's my fault i don't like me. I should have fixed me before i started not to like me.

People exspect me to be this wild and out there girl. This non-wallflower girl but they have no idea how scared i get. How terrified i am of the future and such.

With my parents busy with things and my sister busy with "her" problems....i have no idea who to turn to. I know my friends would say them but i know deep down they really don't want to hear it. Anyway, who wants to listen to a depressed teen? People have bigger problems out there. I'll just sit here and exist without anyone really knowing.

shhhhhh it's a secret.

*sighs* well anyway i've been having this weird panic attacks lately. I mean they were really bad in school. Like one day i was sitting in my math Class and my heart just started racing along with my thoughts. I felt like i was going crazy and i got really mad at myself. Just this unexplainable anger inside. It burned and i had to fight from screaming in frustration.

And now just this morning they are back. The racing thoughts and racing heartbeat. The nervousness. What the fuck is wrong with me?

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Sorry no need to curse. Well anyway, that's my post for the day. Not like anyone reads this but oh well.

~Dani

I wonder....

Sometimes i wonder if people will miss me if i disappear? Is that so horrible of me to think that? Who knows....i really don't fucking care.
~Dani

weird

My sister is moving back in b/c her boyfriend broke up with her. So she'll be a sobbing mess. Great. Just what we fucking need here. My parents are waiting for a loan approval so my dad has been doing repairs on the house for the past week. I feel like i'm poor. My dad got laid off a few weeks ago and he applied for Unempolyment. This is driving me crazy...i keep thinking with everything thats going on....what about me? it costs to live. Where does it leave me? Will i just fade into the darkness of my families problems. I feel completely and utterly hopeless.....and useless. I tried not to get involved with my families problems but it's to late for that. Not to forget i have relationship problems to face. My ex likes me again. But i'm happy with what i have. I just don't want to hurt anyone...is that so wrong? I don't see it as wrong. so i didn't tell him no yet. I can't get the words to come out. I can't get any words to come out any more. Let me describe family life right now- Dad- Cheap/Worry. Mom- hope/light. Sister- Sucidal fright train. Me- Lost/confused/scared of future.

Most days now i find myself just wishing for a helping hand. I feel like i'm gonna blow up at times when i just keep everything in. No one wants to listen to me anyway. Not my parents. Not my sister. They have their own problems. I can't bother them with mine. i know no one will read this but at least i get it out of my head before it kills me. I just need to get it out some how. Maybe some day i'll feel the way i used to instead of titter-tottering from mood to mood. I just wish for one i can get a hold on things instead of having this burning pain in my chest, in my heart. I just can't get a grip. I don't exspect anyone to read this. I don't exspect anyones advice. I just want this to be known.

peace,
Danielle

Hey All ^^

Howdy folks! i know i've been horrible with keeping up my blog but i've been busy ^^ Well school is finally out! WHICH means 2 more years left! WOOTZ! I Also have some GREAT news I'll be going (hopefully) to my first stargate convention in November!!!! I can hardly believe it myself! I've been trying to get David Hewlett to go cause i sent an email to Creation Entertainments and i posted a thread on Davids site so HOPEFULLY that will work. Any one in the NJ area- TRY TO COME! It's going to be the last convention on the East Coast! We GOTTA have a party for it or something! YAY! LOLS ALSO-

Stargate Atlantis finally returns to our wonderful screens JULY 11TH!

AND

STARGATE SG-1'S SECOND MOVIE COMES OUT JULY 29TH........MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOTZ!

Any way i'll try to keep up with my blog posts now ^^

Peace, love and Chocolate,

Danielle

Also here are some pics ^^ (see top)

Internet back for good

Hiya guys! the school year for me is coming to a close ^^ YAY That's pretty much all i have to say upon my return....oh and here is a recent pic of me. (see above) and above that is one of the many fav pics of David Hewlett.

~Danielle

The stargates second movie comes out on MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Is happy!* OMG!! It comes out on MY b-day! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! Can you believe it?! LOLS! Anyway-

My internet is still down, i'm on my grandmas computer but hopefully it will be back up soon! Just wanted to let ya'll know i'm still around! ^_____^ Also-

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAVID HEWLETT! i have a gift for you but you'll have to wait for it lols! I need a place to send it where i know you'll get it! ^^
~Dani

Jan8/2008

I DISECTED A FROG! LOLS ^^ That's pretty much all thats interesting lols.

~Danielle

"keeping you a secret"(Jan6/08)

I finished my book at 1:30 AM. It was sooooo worth it. I highly recomend people to read it! It's an awesome book.


As for my life-

I made a trailer for my film that doesn't even have a script yet. It's in the HUGE premakes. i don't even have the timeline finished.

That's pretty much it today.

gotta fly!

~Danielle

Went home sick today.

I left school early due to a stupid stomach ache. I missed disecting the worm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not going to miss the frog i promise lols.

~Danielle

Ah 2008!

Lols! Well i survived another year! I'm reading this really good book- "Keeping you a Secret" I love it! I Can totally relate with the main Character which is always good^^ OMG FINALLY SGA is coming back! My fridays are soooo boring without something good to watch lols.

Also i'm writting a sequal to my big hit on ff.net- "So Sick". That story has the most reveiws out of all of my SG-1 stories. I'm so happy to be working on the story line again. Trouble is ahead for Dr. Danielle Santek however. Just look it up if you want to read it. It's called- "Making It"
It has dan and jan in it and sam and jack. I'm very proud of it.

So anyways i'll try to post more. I know i've been really slacking on posting. Well...it's not like anyone reads this so yeah. Also people if you read this please just comment saying that you did so i know at least someone is interested in my somewhat borning exsistence. LOLS

Thanks!

PEACE!

~Danielle