Hey guys, Dani here. I'm back from Cali. It was alright but i'm glad to be home. I've had a lot of time to think to myself. To just think about stuff. Not all of it is bad. Only most.
Sorry
I'm not trying to be a downer, I just don't like me very much right now.
It's times like these where i wonder how my family would think of me if they read this, but half of them don't even know what a blog is. I wonder if they would look at me the same. I mean i've written some pretty shitty stuff in here.
It's my fault i don't like me. I should have fixed me before i started not to like me.
People exspect me to be this wild and out there girl. This non-wallflower girl but they have no idea how scared i get. How terrified i am of the future and such.
With my parents busy with things and my sister busy with "her" problems....i have no idea who to turn to. I know my friends would say them but i know deep down they really don't want to hear it. Anyway, who wants to listen to a depressed teen? People have bigger problems out there. I'll just sit here and exist without anyone really knowing.
shhhhhh it's a secret.
*sighs* well anyway i've been having this weird panic attacks lately. I mean they were really bad in school. Like one day i was sitting in my math Class and my heart just started racing along with my thoughts. I felt like i was going crazy and i got really mad at myself. Just this unexplainable anger inside. It burned and i had to fight from screaming in frustration.
And now just this morning they are back. The racing thoughts and racing heartbeat. The nervousness. What the fuck is wrong with me?
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Sorry no need to curse. Well anyway, that's my post for the day. Not like anyone reads this but oh well.
~Dani
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