you can't stop the beat!!!!!!!!!!!

AWESOME MOVIE! GO AND SEE IT! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hairspray_(2007_film) Thats the link....if it doesn't work...look it up!!!!!!!!!!!

PEACE!

~Danielle

ghost

I feel so invisable now a days. I feel like no one sees me. Just like a ghost. I don't feel real.....i feel outside of myself. Why can't i ever feel normal?

My friends that i've had for the longest time seem to pretend i'm not there. All they do is ignore me or make fun. Let me let you in on a few of them-

Meredith- Once was a close friend of mine. A boy ruined it and now she is distant from me. I miss the friendship i used to have with her. She seems like she isn't even interested in whats going on with me. She barely talks to me. I guess she's just too wrapped up in he boy toy to care.

Kevin- I used to date him and before that i used to view him as my brother. Now he barely talks to me. He doesn't come over my house anymore.....All he does is make fun of me.....i hate it

Mike- I used to date him too. I feel like all he cares about is Krystal. He always hangs out with Mere, kev, mike and krystal...where does that leave me?

Krystal- Doesn't seem to care anymore.....nobody does anymore.....

The people that care-

Kristein- I met her this years and i am happy i did.

Maggie- Again another girl i met this year and happy i did.

Sharon- My ever so caring girlfriend.

Sam Sweeny- My online Stargate friend! She is freakin' amazing! lols!

Ray Ray- My best buddy from Down under. ^^

~Sadly i don't really think i can think of anyone else~

I hate feeling like a ghost......just a wandering soul...without feeling, always cold, always numb.....I fucking hate this....i really do....

~Dani

Sunday, November 18 2007 (6:24PM)

Hey everyone. Just posting to let you know i'm still around. LOLS. Well i've been doing a lot of thinking lately. It all started with a question my friend asked me- "If you had to pick...which sense would you lose? Smell, Touch, taste, hearing?" I told her i'd rather lose my sense of smell. I actually had to do a lot of thinking about the answer.

When you really think about it- People can't lose their sense of touch because it's nessary for humans to have touch of something, or at least that's what i've heard. People can't lose their sense of taste because that would drive people to thinking..."Well if i can't taste it, why eat?" That is the one thing that people don't want to hear, anorexia is enough of a problem with taste. People can't lose hearing because....what wpuld happen if you make music for a living? Or if you live for music?

I for one would probably die or lose who i am completely without music. Music is my flow of life. It's something i don't see myself living without.

On that note i'm gonna slide into the subject of depression, just for a moment. I have, over the weekend, purchased this book called- A Bright Red Scream by- Marilee Strong. It is amazingly written and takes my breath away. The following is a passage from the book-

"The first step, however, does not involve any more neurochemistry than the effort it takes to listen with compassion" ~Marilee Strong

Its a really good book and i recommend it for anyone who has been through this problem or has encountered it before or is still struggling today.

I myself am dealing with this problem. This book should hopefully help me. Poems also help me. I want to make a book of my poems even though i have no clue where to start. I'm going to ask two of my old english teachers from last year to write either a forward or a passage message for the book. Keep a look out for it if it hopefully gets released ^^

PEACE!

~Danielle

Cat Habbits

It's offical my cat is a computer cat! He is always by the computer with me, he really is turning into a Rodney ^^ YAY!

~Danielle

My Kitty...Rodney!

Yes thats right Stargate Atlantis fans! I have a cat named rodney! ^^ He is a white cat with some gray spots. He has an all gray tail with a white tip. He is soooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love him to pieces already! He is the cutest little sweetheart!

~Danielle

Well thats it

The convention dream has ended and ended up empty. LOLS I didn't get to go. I couldn't save enough money. Maybe next year. It's good to save up money cause next year i might need to pay air fair you never know. I will get to a convention one of these days. I know i will. I just have to keep my dreams alive. Cause- "everything that is or was, was created from dreams"~Lava Girl. Yeah i know it's a silly qoute but it's true. Never let those dreams die. Keep them alive and reach for them. Reach for the stars. And if you touch one be careful.....stars are hot. LOLS! ^^ Well those are my thoughts for the moment. I just thought i should share them with you. Have a good one people!

PEACE!!!

~Danielle

Root Canal sucess and Hamster death anniversary

Ironic eh? I get a root canal done on the anniversary of my hamsters death, he's been gone a year today. *tears* I miss him. But life goes on. Anyway my tooth hurts somewhat, its just very tender otherwise the root canal was a sucess and i survived ^^

~Danielle