ghost

I feel so invisable now a days. I feel like no one sees me. Just like a ghost. I don't feel real.....i feel outside of myself. Why can't i ever feel normal?

My friends that i've had for the longest time seem to pretend i'm not there. All they do is ignore me or make fun. Let me let you in on a few of them-

Meredith- Once was a close friend of mine. A boy ruined it and now she is distant from me. I miss the friendship i used to have with her. She seems like she isn't even interested in whats going on with me. She barely talks to me. I guess she's just too wrapped up in he boy toy to care.

Kevin- I used to date him and before that i used to view him as my brother. Now he barely talks to me. He doesn't come over my house anymore.....All he does is make fun of me.....i hate it

Mike- I used to date him too. I feel like all he cares about is Krystal. He always hangs out with Mere, kev, mike and krystal...where does that leave me?

Krystal- Doesn't seem to care anymore.....nobody does anymore.....

The people that care-

Kristein- I met her this years and i am happy i did.

Maggie- Again another girl i met this year and happy i did.

Sharon- My ever so caring girlfriend.

Sam Sweeny- My online Stargate friend! She is freakin' amazing! lols!

Ray Ray- My best buddy from Down under. ^^

~Sadly i don't really think i can think of anyone else~

I hate feeling like a ghost......just a wandering soul...without feeling, always cold, always numb.....I fucking hate this....i really do....

~Dani