From the Inside looking Out

Live journal Isn't working right now lol

2009-03-27T04:51:00.000-07:00

Hey all Dani here! i haven't been here in a while. Well the only reason i'm here is because LJ won't let me get on which sucks lol but anyway i am currenty sitting in my TV tech class at Jackson Liberty Highschool! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!! LOL Anyway They have these awesome Macs that i am currently using as we speak. YAY Anyway haha i gotta stop using that phrase so much. I'll talk to you guys when i can...liberty live is gonna be shot soon.

Peace,

Dani

Woah! Old blog!

2008-11-19T16:37:00.000-08:00

LOL! Sorry Blogger! I guess i was paying to much attention to my LJ lol. But anyway a few updates-

-I cut my hair super short
-i'm cutting again (I know- bad Danielle Bad!)
-I MISSED THE NJ SG CONVENTION AGAIN! *sobs*
-I couldn't afford it
-therefore missed my chance to meet ZELENKA AND RONON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARG! (aka David and jason) lol

*sigh*

I wanted Davids autograph sooooooo much!

PEACE,
~Danielle

Jessica is pregnant again

2008-09-27T14:49:00.000-07:00

^__^ tehe my cousins girlfriend, Jessica is pregnant again! ^__^ First it was Daniel Ryan jr. and now a new baby! ^^ I hope it's a girl ^__^

~Dani

P.S- i'll put up a more updated post soon ^^

My sister

2008-08-28T11:20:00.000-07:00

She amazes me sometimes....not in the good way either. She just showed up home today after going on Vacation with her Boyfriend. She didn't even get my mom a b-day card, which she missed cause of her said vacation. She's going to take her out. That's always her f**king back plan. God i can't stand her anymore. She got FIVE purses the other day. You'd think she'd give a shit about our mom enough to get her one. NOOOOO it's to much to ask.

I can't stand this s*** anymore. And the thing that annoys me the most is how whenever she passes by the computer she always looks at the screen! It's none of her business what i'm doing! And now she's ranting to me about how everyone thinks shes a spiteful B****....it's true. We all do. I don't know what happened to my sister but....this woman living at my house isn't my sister anymore....it doesn't feel like it anyway. She's the boarder, she lives here, eats the food and doesn't lift a finger. It's driving me NUTS!

Anyway i should probably end this rant. I can't wait to go to the mall with my mom, just me and her. I love my mom. Talk to you guys soon.

~Dani

The shrine, first reaction from me taken from the ADB backup site

2008-08-22T22:04:00.000-07:00

I have to say that this episode most diffinately has joined the ranks of my favorites. In my favorites are Mckay and Mrs. Miller, Millers Crossing and now The Shrine. This episode was amazing and david played it beautifully, not to mention Brad did an amazing job on writting it. It diffinately satisfied my McSheppy soul. There are so many wonderful parts that i loved so i'm gonna say...SPOILER WARNING now lols. First off...i was crying by the first five seconds into the episode when Mckay was doing that whole "mr. Mckay" bit and i lost it even more when Jeannie went to see rodney. By the time McKay was like "I'm sick" i lost it completely. I'm a very emotional person so episodes like this make me sob like a baby. I loved how during the episode they showed bits and pieces of his video log. Well while i'm on the fav moments subject let me list them-I absolutely loved it when Rodney sought out john in the middle of the night when he got scared. I still, however, felt that a hug should have been put there somewhere. And the whole Authur bit on the pier was funny. And that whole part in general screamed McSheppy. ^^ tehe Sorry ppl i'm a Mcsheppy fan-girl. lols.I loved it how ronon was all like "i owe it to him" and stuff. It brought me back to the part in "Tao" when rodney healed ronons wounds. Now one big part from the episode as a whole was how whenever rodney was scared, or upset or hurting he went to john. Yeah sure....he told jen he loved her....but he went to john for everything. lols So my Mcshep heart is set lols. Now on Davids performance-Davids-All i can really manage is wow. His protrayal of a person with those sorts of problems was amazingly acurate. My mom used to work with people with those problems and she would tell me stories. Davids performance was honest and realistic right down to the brutal fact that he didn't even comprehend what the team was planning. Just a brillient and award deserving performance which can't be summed up in words easily.Everyone else's-Was equally amazing. The reactions were perfect. Pretty much everyone was amazing.Now...that's pretty much all i can say at 1:00 am lols. I'm on my fifth time watching the episode and i might just do a transcript for it. I'm also gonna re-post this in my blog because at 1 in the morning my mind is kinda fried lols. ^^~DanielleS

SGA Cancelled...life sucks

2008-08-21T17:55:00.000-07:00

Just when i thought my life couldn't get any suckier....it just did. I found out yesterday that SGA season 5 would be it's last season! This sucks....i mean it really really sucks! I absolutely love SGA.... *cough* and rodney *cough* I Can't believe it! My parents lose their jobs, my sister becomes self-centered...*cough* she always was *cough* and now no more SGA (besides the DVDs but still). I'm going to miss all of the Characters! I will deffinately miss rodney! I will miss the show aswell.

This show has helped me through so much stuff that have gone through my life. It has saved my life on more then one occation. How can someone just take something like that away.....i don't understand....

~DanielleS

Forever Gone

2008-08-13T20:24:00.000-07:00

I've just been thinking again. One day on my b-day i'm going to send the link for my blog around to my family. Just to see if they could tell what i was thinking or if they were blind sighted by it. maybe they will be....who knows...... My sister is still together with her boyfriend. And she is getting on my fucking nerves.....she thinks she is the only one with problems. w/e....i'm so sick of her shit....anyway....i just thought i'd post. I've also decided to post a wish list-

- Meet David Hewlett
-Go to a stargate Convention (and maybe meet him there)
-meet the rest of the Stargate Atlantis Cast and Sg-1 cast as well
-Go to a second hand serenade concert
-go to an Evanscene concert
-go to a within temptation concert
- Direct music videos
-Surve an intership at Bridge studios
-Move to New York or Canada
-Meet ellen Degenerous
-Help David Hewlett with his next movie
-Become rich
-try acting
-become less shy

-----Thats all i have so far, i'll keep updating ^^

~Dani

I just thought i'd update

2008-08-09T19:10:00.000-07:00

Hey folks! lols I just thought i'd throw in an update, a happy one so don't worry lols. I've been learning more songs for the piano. I can play the intro for how to save a life, intro for Apologize, Intro for It ends tonight, intro for Your Call and a little bit of Angels ^^ WOOTZ! OMG! Playing the piano with your right and left is hard. lols the songs that i pretty much have down with the right and left are- Sam and jacks theme and Your call. ^^

Well that's all i'll say for now. ^___^ TTy SOON!

~Dani

back from california

2008-07-18T10:18:00.001-07:00

Hey guys, Dani here. I'm back from Cali. It was alright but i'm glad to be home. I've had a lot of time to think to myself. To just think about stuff. Not all of it is bad. Only most.

Sorry

I'm not trying to be a downer, I just don't like me very much right now.

It's times like these where i wonder how my family would think of me if they read this, but half of them don't even know what a blog is. I wonder if they would look at me the same. I mean i've written some pretty shitty stuff in here.

It's my fault i don't like me. I should have fixed me before i started not to like me.

People exspect me to be this wild and out there girl. This non-wallflower girl but they have no idea how scared i get. How terrified i am of the future and such.

With my parents busy with things and my sister busy with "her" problems....i have no idea who to turn to. I know my friends would say them but i know deep down they really don't want to hear it. Anyway, who wants to listen to a depressed teen? People have bigger problems out there. I'll just sit here and exist without anyone really knowing.

shhhhhh it's a secret.

*sighs* well anyway i've been having this weird panic attacks lately. I mean they were really bad in school. Like one day i was sitting in my math Class and my heart just started racing along with my thoughts. I felt like i was going crazy and i got really mad at myself. Just this unexplainable anger inside. It burned and i had to fight from screaming in frustration.

And now just this morning they are back. The racing thoughts and racing heartbeat. The nervousness. What the fuck is wrong with me?

......
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Sorry no need to curse. Well anyway, that's my post for the day. Not like anyone reads this but oh well.

~Dani

I wonder....

2008-06-25T18:35:00.001-07:00

Sometimes i wonder if people will miss me if i disappear? Is that so horrible of me to think that? Who knows....i really don't fucking care.
~Dani

weird

2008-06-25T14:18:00.000-07:00

My sister is moving back in b/c her boyfriend broke up with her. So she'll be a sobbing mess. Great. Just what we fucking need here. My parents are waiting for a loan approval so my dad has been doing repairs on the house for the past week. I feel like i'm poor. My dad got laid off a few weeks ago and he applied for Unempolyment. This is driving me crazy...i keep thinking with everything thats going on....what about me? it costs to live. Where does it leave me? Will i just fade into the darkness of my families problems. I feel completely and utterly hopeless.....and useless. I tried not to get involved with my families problems but it's to late for that. Not to forget i have relationship problems to face. My ex likes me again. But i'm happy with what i have. I just don't want to hurt anyone...is that so wrong? I don't see it as wrong. so i didn't tell him no yet. I can't get the words to come out. I can't get any words to come out any more. Let me describe family life right now- Dad- Cheap/Worry. Mom- hope/light. Sister- Sucidal fright train. Me- Lost/confused/scared of future.

Most days now i find myself just wishing for a helping hand. I feel like i'm gonna blow up at times when i just keep everything in. No one wants to listen to me anyway. Not my parents. Not my sister. They have their own problems. I can't bother them with mine. i know no one will read this but at least i get it out of my head before it kills me. I just need to get it out some how. Maybe some day i'll feel the way i used to instead of titter-tottering from mood to mood. I just wish for one i can get a hold on things instead of having this burning pain in my chest, in my heart. I just can't get a grip. I don't exspect anyone to read this. I don't exspect anyones advice. I just want this to be known.

peace,
Danielle

Hey All ^^

2008-06-22T12:25:00.000-07:00

Howdy folks! i know i've been horrible with keeping up my blog but i've been busy ^^ Well school is finally out! WHICH means 2 more years left! WOOTZ! I Also have some GREAT news I'll be going (hopefully) to my first stargate convention in November!!!! I can hardly believe it myself! I've been trying to get David Hewlett to go cause i sent an email to Creation Entertainments and i posted a thread on Davids site so HOPEFULLY that will work. Any one in the NJ area- TRY TO COME! It's going to be the last convention on the East Coast! We GOTTA have a party for it or something! YAY! LOLS ALSO-

Stargate Atlantis finally returns to our wonderful screens JULY 11TH!

AND

STARGATE SG-1'S SECOND MOVIE COMES OUT JULY 29TH........MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOTZ!

Any way i'll try to keep up with my blog posts now ^^

Peace, love and Chocolate,

Danielle

Also here are some pics ^^ (see top)

Internet back for good

2008-06-08T16:33:00.000-07:00

Hiya guys! the school year for me is coming to a close ^^ YAY That's pretty much all i have to say upon my return....oh and here is a recent pic of me. (see above) and above that is one of the many fav pics of David Hewlett.

~Danielle

The stargates second movie comes out on MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-20T13:50:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Is happy!* OMG!! It comes out on MY b-day! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! Can you believe it?! LOLS! Anyway-

My internet is still down, i'm on my grandmas computer but hopefully it will be back up soon! Just wanted to let ya'll know i'm still around! ^_____^ Also-

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAVID HEWLETT! i have a gift for you but you'll have to wait for it lols! I need a place to send it where i know you'll get it! ^^
~Dani

Jan8/2008

2008-01-08T16:28:00.000-08:00

I DISECTED A FROG! LOLS ^^ That's pretty much all thats interesting lols.

~Danielle

"keeping you a secret"(Jan6/08)

2008-01-06T10:08:00.000-08:00

I finished my book at 1:30 AM. It was sooooo worth it. I highly recomend people to read it! It's an awesome book.

As for my life-

I made a trailer for my film that doesn't even have a script yet. It's in the HUGE premakes. i don't even have the timeline finished.

That's pretty much it today.

gotta fly!

~Danielle

Went home sick today.

2008-01-04T15:54:00.000-08:00

I left school early due to a stupid stomach ache. I missed disecting the worm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not going to miss the frog i promise lols.

~Danielle

Ah 2008!

2008-01-03T16:07:00.000-08:00

Lols! Well i survived another year! I'm reading this really good book- "Keeping you a Secret" I love it! I Can totally relate with the main Character which is always good^^ OMG FINALLY SGA is coming back! My fridays are soooo boring without something good to watch lols.

Also i'm writting a sequal to my big hit on ff.net- "So Sick". That story has the most reveiws out of all of my SG-1 stories. I'm so happy to be working on the story line again. Trouble is ahead for Dr. Danielle Santek however. Just look it up if you want to read it. It's called- "Making It"
It has dan and jan in it and sam and jack. I'm very proud of it.

So anyways i'll try to post more. I know i've been really slacking on posting. Well...it's not like anyone reads this so yeah. Also people if you read this please just comment saying that you did so i know at least someone is interested in my somewhat borning exsistence. LOLS

Thanks!

PEACE!

~Danielle

Sweeney Todd

2007-12-31T12:56:00.001-08:00

THIS MOVIE IS MY FAV MOVIE OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Dani

I have TWO blogs now ^^

2007-12-31T12:40:00.000-08:00

Http://danielleswanteksgafan.wordpress.com

Check it out ^^

~Dani

Oh Camera how i love thee! LOLS

2007-12-27T14:09:00.000-08:00

YAY! Pics from my camera! The first one is me, second- my cat, third- a pic i took. ^^ YAY!

~Dani

P.s- christmas was good to me.

BREAK A WEEK AWAY!

2007-12-17T16:13:00.000-08:00

WOO HOOO! The break is a week away! TEN DAYS OFF FROM SCHOOL AND PLUS CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PEACE!

~Dani

Christmas is comming to town (soon)!

2007-12-08T11:02:00.000-08:00

OMG! I am so pumped for this upcoming christmas season! I've been dieing to play christmas songs on my piano since the end of halloween! AND NOW I CAN! ^^ I have no clue what to get anyone! Not only i'm a broke, but i can't think of any good poems to give out and make special! AND I HAVE TWO WEEKS TO DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Can ANYONE help me on this?! lols! I'm stuck!

But anyways-

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

~Dani

you can't stop the beat!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-26T17:37:00.001-08:00

AWESOME MOVIE! GO AND SEE IT! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hairspray_(2007_film) Thats the link....if it doesn't work...look it up!!!!!!!!!!!

PEACE!

~Danielle

ghost

2007-11-20T16:39:00.001-08:00

I feel so invisable now a days. I feel like no one sees me. Just like a ghost. I don't feel real.....i feel outside of myself. Why can't i ever feel normal?

My friends that i've had for the longest time seem to pretend i'm not there. All they do is ignore me or make fun. Let me let you in on a few of them-

Meredith- Once was a close friend of mine. A boy ruined it and now she is distant from me. I miss the friendship i used to have with her. She seems like she isn't even interested in whats going on with me. She barely talks to me. I guess she's just too wrapped up in he boy toy to care.

Kevin- I used to date him and before that i used to view him as my brother. Now he barely talks to me. He doesn't come over my house anymore.....All he does is make fun of me.....i hate it

Mike- I used to date him too. I feel like all he cares about is Krystal. He always hangs out with Mere, kev, mike and krystal...where does that leave me?

Krystal- Doesn't seem to care anymore.....nobody does anymore.....

The people that care-

Kristein- I met her this years and i am happy i did.

Maggie- Again another girl i met this year and happy i did.

Sharon- My ever so caring girlfriend.

Sam Sweeny- My online Stargate friend! She is freakin' amazing! lols!

Ray Ray- My best buddy from Down under. ^^

~Sadly i don't really think i can think of anyone else~

I hate feeling like a ghost......just a wandering soul...without feeling, always cold, always numb.....I fucking hate this....i really do....

~Dani

Sunday, November 18 2007 (6:24PM)

2007-11-18T15:20:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone. Just posting to let you know i'm still around. LOLS. Well i've been doing a lot of thinking lately. It all started with a question my friend asked me- "If you had to pick...which sense would you lose? Smell, Touch, taste, hearing?" I told her i'd rather lose my sense of smell. I actually had to do a lot of thinking about the answer.

When you really think about it- People can't lose their sense of touch because it's nessary for humans to have touch of something, or at least that's what i've heard. People can't lose their sense of taste because that would drive people to thinking..."Well if i can't taste it, why eat?" That is the one thing that people don't want to hear, anorexia is enough of a problem with taste. People can't lose hearing because....what wpuld happen if you make music for a living? Or if you live for music?

I for one would probably die or lose who i am completely without music. Music is my flow of life. It's something i don't see myself living without.

On that note i'm gonna slide into the subject of depression, just for a moment. I have, over the weekend, purchased this book called- A Bright Red Scream by- Marilee Strong. It is amazingly written and takes my breath away. The following is a passage from the book-

"The first step, however, does not involve any more neurochemistry than the effort it takes to listen with compassion" ~Marilee Strong

Its a really good book and i recommend it for anyone who has been through this problem or has encountered it before or is still struggling today.

I myself am dealing with this problem. This book should hopefully help me. Poems also help me. I want to make a book of my poems even though i have no clue where to start. I'm going to ask two of my old english teachers from last year to write either a forward or a passage message for the book. Keep a look out for it if it hopefully gets released ^^

PEACE!

~Danielle

Cat Habbits

2007-11-12T03:35:00.003-08:00

It's offical my cat is a computer cat! He is always by the computer with me, he really is turning into a Rodney ^^ YAY!

~Danielle

My Kitty...Rodney!

2007-11-11T15:23:00.000-08:00

Yes thats right Stargate Atlantis fans! I have a cat named rodney! ^^ He is a white cat with some gray spots. He has an all gray tail with a white tip. He is soooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love him to pieces already! He is the cutest little sweetheart!

~Danielle

Well thats it

2007-11-04T16:11:00.000-08:00

The convention dream has ended and ended up empty. LOLS I didn't get to go. I couldn't save enough money. Maybe next year. It's good to save up money cause next year i might need to pay air fair you never know. I will get to a convention one of these days. I know i will. I just have to keep my dreams alive. Cause- "everything that is or was, was created from dreams"~Lava Girl. Yeah i know it's a silly qoute but it's true. Never let those dreams die. Keep them alive and reach for them. Reach for the stars. And if you touch one be careful.....stars are hot. LOLS! ^^ Well those are my thoughts for the moment. I just thought i should share them with you. Have a good one people!

PEACE!!!

~Danielle

Root Canal sucess and Hamster death anniversary

2007-11-01T16:34:00.000-07:00

Ironic eh? I get a root canal done on the anniversary of my hamsters death, he's been gone a year today. *tears* I miss him. But life goes on. Anyway my tooth hurts somewhat, its just very tender otherwise the root canal was a sucess and i survived ^^

~Danielle

October 30th 6:07PM

2007-10-30T15:06:00.000-07:00

Howdy all! LOLS! My little try at texan speech. It's fucking cold here in NJ. There is no food in my house. I feel like i'm in some sad technicolor remake of The Great Depression. ARG! I hate this. I fucking hate this.

PEACE!

~Danielle

Of Root Canals and shear Terror

2007-10-25T15:25:00.000-07:00

OK, heres the deal I went to the dentist today and found out that i have to get a root canal. Oh Dear Lord. I am soooo frinkin scared! I've never had a cavity in my life none the less having to get a root canal on an infected tooth. *shivers* Anyone care to offer some comforting words?

PEACE!

~Danielle

BORED NOW

2007-10-16T15:24:00.000-07:00

AHA! I'm so bored i thought i'd update a blog no one reads lols. Which means if you read this you have to comment! *evil laugh* I trapped you!

jk

You are probably wondering why i have such random pics up. Well i don't because pic number one represents the accident with my finger. Pic number two represents my bordum in school and how i get tired in school. The third pic represents my fanfiction writing. 4th pic-my friends poking me. 5th pic-I just like the picture ^^
Well i'm out!

PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Danielle

Of cut fingers and Shirt designing

2007-10-14T15:52:00.000-07:00

Well today has been full of interesting things. First my day started off my having a piece of my skin riped up because of accidental slips of the fingers when handling scissors. BUT i did manage to finish my shirt. I had to make two shirts. One for school and one for stargate. ^^ Well thats pretty much the ONLY tramatizing thing that has happened to me today. Thank god. TTYSOON!

PEACE!

~Danielle

Three days into October

2007-10-03T16:08:00.000-07:00

Its My friend Sam. She sure is pretty! ^^
Hiya people. I just got done eating my chicken wrap and i am stuffed lols. So while i'm sitting here not wanting to get up....i thought..."Hmmm...why don't i update my blog?" ^^

ANYWAY-

Today was a good day. I had my first Student Counsol meeting today, it was interesting. I really liked it. My Fav teacher ever- Ms. Borrelli Mentioned it to me. Ms. Borrelli is tons of fun! She is sooo down to earth and funny! She rocks! ^^

SOOOO-

I have a few more friends that i have made to add to the list. I'm not listing my friends to seem like a jerk or something i'm just listing them to say nice things about them and i'm gonna put in these things- () how my friends relate to what shows/video games etc. that i watch ^^ ^^

Friends-

Sharon Green- My girlfriend and best friend ^^ she is sooo cute and funny but sometimes annoying. I still love her though!

Raymond Charles Standen- He is my ray ray! My little Aussie from down under. Me wuves my ray ray! He is such a sweetheart and all around nice guy. He always cheers me up when i'm feeling blue.

Meredith(Stargate Atlantis- Meredith Rodney Mckay)- She won't let me put her last name cause she doesn't like to be exposed on the internet. She is a great friend of mine. I did have a crush on her at one point...i mean who wouldn't! She's so tiny and cute! Oh gosh....i hope she doesn't read this. LOLS ^^

Samantha Sweeney(Stargate SG-1- Sam carter duh lols)- She is my friend from Wisconsin! She is like a copy of Sam carter! She is super nice and awesome! AND she is very pretty! lols! I'm very glad i'm friends with her! ^___^ She is freakin' awesome!

Amanda Hail(Amanda Tapping)- ^^ She is still my friend even though i don't really talk to her much anymore. I wish the friendship we had was like it used to be.

Amanda Scott aka Scoot- ^^ I met her last year and i am not that close with her yet...we'll see.

Krystal Holmes- ^^ She is my silly friend! She is sooo fucking funny! And super amazing!

Kevin Webber- One of my guy friends. He actually gets me lols. He is a traditional dork of the century lols. Red neck all the way.

Mike Mcgrath(Michael Shanks LOLS)- I hope i spelt his last name right lols. Another one of my guy friends. he is cool and funny and i tried dating him like three times lols.

Kassandra (Cassie lols)- I met her on ADB movie .com ^^ She is super nice and her baby is soooooo cute!

Maggie- I just met her this year! She is totally awesome though^^

Kristen- She can get annoying sometimes but she is an ok friend ^^ lols

Hannah- She is from the UK i believe lols She is AWESOME!

ZOMG

May Lin- My bestest friend from Norway! She is soooo freakin' cool! ^_________^

~~~~~i hope i didn't forget anyone if i did just yell at me but remember if i forgot you...you are still in my heart ^^ tehe!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

PEACE!

~Danielle

October 1st. 4:10PM

2007-10-01T13:10:00.000-07:00

October is here! The leaves are falling and the wind is blowing! Goodbye summer heat and hello heavy jackets and fall wear....and cold.....lots of cold. I hate the cold mornings of fall. It's like a slap in the face when you wake up early. It makes you want to go and trip the runners that pass by in the cold with their shorts and sleeveless shirts. ARG! LOLS. Well i just thought i should make a fall post! Oh and BTW upcominf b-days are afoot. My Sister Amy will be turning 23 this month! She is currently in the hospital cause of kidney stones and a viral infection. They kept her in the hospital since last tuesday and she MIGHT be coming home this tuesday. Cross your fingers and hope. I hope she's alright.

PEACE!

~Danielle

Sunday, September 30, 7:19 PM

2007-09-30T16:18:00.000-07:00

Hiya people. I just thought i should update my blog cause i feel like it. LOLS. I saw the Atlantis episode "Adrift" friday and loved it :)! My girlfriend spent the night not one but TWO nights in a row. We went shopping and got s SHIT load of candy lols. We like candy. ^^ Also for the people that read this....My story- "Drowns My Spark" On Fanfiction.net is still in process and i am working on it in between typing this. READ IT CAUSE I AM ABOUT TO POST MY FAV CHAPTER. Yes i can admit that the fifth chapter of my story is my favorite b/c there is a BIG turning point. So i hope for those of you that read it that you all enjoy it. I love nothing more then when people give me great feed back. ^^

PEACE!

~Danielle S

Thank you

2007-09-24T11:41:00.001-07:00

Thank you guys for your help and Advice. I feel so much better now. I will try to work on my own ideas and such and I do write poems and stuff. If you ever want to read them just send me an email and i'll send ya a few! ^_________________^ You guys are simply the best! *Hugs to all of you* Thank you again.

~DanielleS

A willing light stamped on in the middle of a crowded room.

2007-09-23T18:54:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling kinda down today. I feel like all my life i've never really gotten what i really really wanted. There is so much i want to do. People i want to meet. But of course there are so many things in my way. Age limits, distence, money, money, money. Well mainly Money. My family isn't the wealthiest and i am reminded of that everyday. I hate this. I really do. There is soo much stuff i want to do. I here about people that go to stargate conventions and that have gotten letters back and met the stargate cast and then i think of myself. A simple Stargate fan that has one way of connection to my favorite actors....and thats the internet. All i can do is sit here and write stuff online...always wishing that one day someone will say- "Hey....wanna go see the Stargate Atlantis set and meet the whole cast? I'll pay for your flight and such!" Thats never going to happen....so why do i keep wishing? I put my whole being into this show.....its a way for me to escape the real world....just for a little bit...to get out of my house and go somewhere in the galaxy. I can't take it anymore. Just wishing....praying for things that will never happen. Trying to scream to be heard by others.....for people to notice me.....but that will never happen. My letters to the cast get burried under the millions of letters that come in. My posts forgotten in the shuffle. Whats the point anymore? half of me is screaming- "GIVE UP" and another half of me is screaming- "Keep Wishing all the love you put out will return to you". I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so sick of wishing and praying....why can't anything good happen for me?! Why can't get to meet my idols? the people that have helped me through so much. I'm sorry if i sound selfish but....this is how i feel....and i'm so sick of it. I'm so sick of looking at the website for the conventions and cry....all i can do is cry. I truely truely hate crying....i just want...for once.....for a chance to meet them.....i just need someone to give me that chance....or help me get there...but it will never happen.....never....no matter how hard i try.....i'm so close to giving up in yet.....i can't let myself.....thanks for your time and thanks that you actually read my post on ADB.com and did something about it. Thank you...

~DanielleS

I FINALLY SAW IT!(ADB)

2007-09-22T19:59:00.001-07:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTZ!
FINALLY! YAY ADB! I LOVED IT!!!!!! GREAT JOB DAVID!!!!!!!!

~DanielleS

GAH A DOGS BREAKFAST OUT TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-17T14:46:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I don't think i can put through how excited i am! OMGOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is it tomorrow yet?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?! *jumps up and down* I can't wait to get my paws on that puppy lols (ADB lingo lols ^^)

~Danielle

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY ME!

2007-09-15T20:36:00.000-07:00

God i haven't been this ok...happy....perfect in a long time.! I'm getting me my Queen fix tonight and then Tuesday A DOG'S BREAKFAST will me mine! AHHHHHHHHHHH! RIP FREDDIE!! I love queen! ^_____________________________________^

Counting down

2007-09-09T16:57:00.000-07:00

OMG I can't wait until A Dogs Breakfast comes out on DVD and i can't wait for STARGATE ATLANTIS to return! ^_____________________________^

~DanielleS

This one is for the ones that put up with me

2007-09-08T18:00:00.000-07:00

This one is for my fabulous Girlfriend Sharon....i won't tell you the last name....cause i don't want to give her away like that online. SHE'S MINE BITCHES! Isn't she pretty?! I LOVE HER!!! WOOTZ!...*thinks* God i'm such a dork....wait a minute....ewwwwwwwww.

The sad thing is i don't know how long we have been together! She knows but i don't....tehe i'm bad....sorry baby if you are reading this.

She has black hair now. She is WAY WAY WAY WAY Taller then me. She has glasses and likes the same bands i do which is cool. SHE ALSO LIKES STARGATE SG-1 AND STARGATE ATLANTIS LIKE I DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! She also likes Farscape!

UPDATE-

WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER TWO MONTHS-TWO WEEK-TWO DAYS!......WOW....WHY AM I SHOUTING?!?!? I'll stop now lols.

The Funny thing-

Is she is sitting right next to me as i type this....so i'm kinda kissing her ass.....lols......but i love her anyway....*shrugs* She is SOOOO FUCKING CUTE! She just put her phone on vibrate on my leg and scared the crap outta me and then she kissed me! YAY!

~Danielle

School days are back again!

2007-09-07T02:53:00.000-07:00

ARGGG! I'm back in school. LOLS I survived the first day so i think that that's considered a BIG step. I mean if i started b****ing on the first day ppl wouldn't like me and thats not cool....lols. Lets see how the rest of the year goes. lols.

~DanielleS

Of Run aways and poem days

2007-09-04T20:13:00.000-07:00

My friend Mike ran away today...we found him and he is alright but the fact that he ran away and the fact that it took us a while to find him is what scares me....but...at least he is alright...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~In other news~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I've been working on a lot of poems lately. Personal poems and poems for other things.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Surprise~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I have this surprise i'm working on for David Hewlett....i really hope he likes it and if i can't ship it to him i'll post it online. I'm working very hard on it ^^ of course i can't tell you what the surprise is but...i just really hope he likes it. ^^

~Danielle

Story line slashed

2007-09-01T21:22:00.000-07:00

hiya people. My Atlantis story line is currently on the back burner. I guess if they ever run out of ideas they can contact me. What a boost of self confedince this is....oh well....talk to you when i can.
Peace,
Danielle

McKay Line to remember! ^^

2007-08-30T21:59:00.000-07:00

McKay "What am I MacGyver? Fix it with what?"

TEHE! yay RODNEY!
~Danielle S

Atlantis Story Arc UPDATE! IMPORTANT READ!

2007-08-30T10:54:00.000-07:00

My original idea was that Danielle, the last of the living ancients, saw the wraith coming to power in her village. I decided that instead of that she saw a new enemy raising to power. An Enemy called- The Givers. A wealthy force that takes from the poor to keep for themselves or give to other wealthy leaders to keep power, hence the title of the Givers. They were a greedy group of Ancients. Danielle was part of a resistince called- The Takers. The Takers would do their best to make the Givers look bad, by either stealing the Givers ZPMs and money or ruining the Givers plans. Danielle got put into the pod because she got caught trying to steal the Givers ZPM that ran the Givers main ship. The Wraith came and destroyed everything before they had a chance to release her. The Wraith think they destroyed everything but they didn't find the Takers ZPM strong hold that is deep underground. the ZPMs they have are very special. They load in 10 times more power then the ZPM that Atlantis has. There is an up side to it and a down side. The downside once the ZPMs are found, it sends a long range EM pulse and attracts the wraith and the wraith steal them. It's up to danielle and the Team to get the ZPMs back.
My idea on the village-
It's unheard of village were some of the Ancients stayed but not all. Danielle has never heard of Atlantis and has never been there. You can't tell she is an Ancient at first glance. She has the powers of the Ancients she doesn't even know about so there could be MAJOR character developements for this character. Like when she sees Atlantis for the first time and when she sees the wraith, who she has only heard about in nightmarish tales. And also when she discovers her powers. It wouldn't spoil the secret of Atlantis cause she knows nothing of Atlantis or her powers for that matter.

Personal input-
I would be thrilled if my story idea got picked up. It is a dream of mine to see a story that i came up with on screen. I may be young but that shouldn't matter. I am a hard worker and i get very good grades. I think this idea is something good....and i hope it can bring good things for my family, who at this time is having a lot of money problems.

My dream-
To get my story idea picked up and get to go to canada, meet the cast of Atlantis, watch my story being filmed and watch how directing a TV show goes since i want to be a director one day.

~~~~To anyone that is involved with stargate Atlantis~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Please give me a chance. I think my story idea is pretty good. Make this girls' dream come true. I'll await your answer. If you have any questions just ask me. Some things are better to explain when asked about. Thank you for your time.

~Danielle Swantek

HAPPY B-DAY AMANDA TAPPING AND KRYSTAL!!!!

2007-08-27T22:18:00.001-07:00

AMANDA TAPPING! (below)

KRYSTAL! (below left hand side when facing computer screen)

YAY! WOOTZ! YAY B-DAY!!! I just want to give a shout out to AMANDA TAPPING AND MY FRIEND KRYSTAL! HAPPY B-DAY PPL! YOU GUYS ROCK! PAAAARRRRTTTTYYYY TTTTIIIIMMMMEEE LOLS!

August 25

2007-08-25T21:32:00.000-07:00

Yet again...nothing really happening in my life. I'm just looking for ways to meet the stargate sg-1/atlantis cast. so far all ideas are proven stupid....*sighs* i know this post isn't long at all but i just wanted to let you guys know i'm still alive lols. ^^

Augest 23 (long time no post)

2007-08-23T15:48:00.000-07:00

WOW Sorry i haven't been online a lot lately, lots has been happing in the life of me! lols!

+ My mom's B-day was on the 21st

+My Cousin danny purposed to his girlfriend who is pregnant with his child and she said yes! ^^

+My Sister got a bunny.

+my dad started a second job.

-----well actually it's really happening in other peoples lives, not mine lols but still it's my family.

As for me-

I've been watching a lot of Atlantis getting ready for the new season and getting ready for A DOGS BREAKFAST (www.adogsbreakfastmovie.com) that is comming out in September! I am SOOO Buying it! I have my money saved. ^^ I've been watching my DVDs and putting pictures on my wall. But thats pretty much it thats happening in my life. I'm boring lols.

-------------------------The number 23----------------------------

I strongly recomend this movie! It is awesome!

Uh if anyone has any questions just ask and i'll answer them in my next post ^^ I wish i was famous lols! ^^

Story Arc for Atlantis

2007-08-17T12:50:00.000-07:00

As i have said in my first post, i have a story arc for Stargate Atlantis. Please no one take my ideas. Thank you.
-The main idea-
One day i was watching SG-1's episode "flesh and blood" When Vala said- "they used me to sneak one of theirs over the border" It got me thinking. If the Ori can do that, why not the ancients. As we all know, all the Ancients are ascended, what if one didn't.

-Back story-
As we know Atlantis is the city of the Ancients but what if there was more then one place where the Ancients stayed. So here we go- The Atlantis team goes off world to a new planet. there are ancient writtings everywhere with lots of Advanced technology (enough to make McKay go into Hyper-science geek mode). They explore and evencually they find this room. It has a pod in it. It is a life sustaining pod, but what worries the Atlantis team is that on the bottom of the pod it says- Sustained for criminal acts ~The high counsel.
So anyway- McKay goes looking around the pod and states that it has been up and running for millions of years, even though the woman inside of the pod looks no older then McKays age. The pod turns on and the door opens. The woman steps out and looks around for a while. She is somewhat confused. After a while John approches her. She introduces herself and says she is an Ancient. The scene would go like this-
JOHN- Uh...hi, my name is John Sheppard. Look if we were supposed to wake you up we are sorry.
WOMAN- no...no need to Apologize....i was flashly accused. Forgive me for not introducing myself. I am Danielle of the Ancients.
-The atlantis team gapes for a moment-
MCKAY- But you aren't ascended.
DANIELLE- *nods* i guess i've been in that pod longer then i thought.....
MCKAY- and you have the power of the Ancients right?
DANIELLE- *nods* yes i do....i just can't convert to engery form. I am human in the flesh and blood.

- So the Atlantis team takes her back to Altlantis and she explains that the Ancients were in more worlds then just Atlantis. and life continues-

+++++Thats all i have so far but i would really like some help in getting this idea to the writters of Atlantis for perhaps a Season five story. ^^ One can only hope+++++

Hiya Folks!

2007-08-16T20:24:00.000-07:00

WOW first post in my first blog ever! I might as well share some info about me with you all. My name is Danielle and i am currently 16 years old. I live in New jersey(lord help me lols). This little bit of info thats comming up in by far the MOST IMPORTANT PART- I Am I HUGE David Hewlett fan! I LOVE Stargate Atlantis and SG-1. I hope to go to the set one day. I currently have a story arc for Atlantis which i will talk about in another blog post, possibally next post. It's a very far featched idea but who knows. ^^

As you can tell i am a Sci-fi nerd that likes to talk a lot, but i also write poems. I've been told by those who have read them that they are good. I think this aswell. ^^ tehe well DUH they are my poems (sorry thats the McKay in me comming out). I am also openly Bi. I have a bad habbit of jumping from subject to subject with no bridge sentence (like i'm about to do right now ^__^) I LOVE to write. I'm the only kid in my class that will cheer when the English Teacher says that we need to write stories. I live for those days. ^^ I often include stargate characters in my stories cause it makes the story much more interesting. I also write fanfiction on Fanfiction.net. My Screen name on there is SamandJackforever.

My Current problem-
As i have said before i live in New jersey. I live in a little place called Jackson (^^ tehe Daniel Jackson ^^). As far as i've seen i cannot find any other Stargate fans in my area. The only other fan that i know of is my friend Sharon. As you can see this is a BIG PROBLEM! I am starting to feel the effects of "Lonelyfanitis"(lonely- fan-i-tis) It is a very serious illness. Its an illness that a fan of a curtain show gets when they can't find others who like the show. I won't give up though. ^^

"Hewlettitis"(hewlett- i- tis)-
I'm sure you are probably wondering What the Heck Hewlettitis is..am i right? Well Hewlettitis is an illness were you seem to become attached to and obsess over the actor and all around amazing guy, David Hewlett. The Symptoms of this are-
+You find yourself pausing the picture on Rodneys face when watching Atlantis.
+When skipping through the opening theme of Atlantis you play the part that shows Rodney with Davids name.
+When ever David guest stars on a TV show you cheer like crazy when you see his name but then fall silent as soon as it is off the screen.
+You Rename your beanie baby that looks like Davids dog to mars. (Davids dogs name)
+You name PJ pants that you have- "ADB pants" Because they have puppy prints on them.
+You call your mom a lemon during a fight
+You watch movies that don't even perk your interest but you watch them cause David is in them

-There are many more symptoms but i think you get my point. ^^ I'm afraid(uh no not so much) that i have these symptoms and i am Damn Proud of it! BTW- A DOGS BREAKFAST COMES OUT IN SEMPTEMBER ON DVD! BUY IT! (Visit- http://www.adogsbreakfastmovie.com/ )

~~~Well thats all i can really say right now~~~~ Cheers tehe~~~~